"This has the potential of being a great story."

"Ignorant to the damage done." I love that line because that's exactly the way I feel right now. I am sooo sooo angry and upset. I'm just beyond repair at this point. I'm so upset I can't even put it in poetry. That's bad. Because poetry is my outlet. I have nothing without me. Someone just ripped my heart out and cut it up infront of me. They degraded my writing and told me they only read it half-way through! WHAT THE FUCK?! I am sooo sooo soooooooo mad... I'm not even mad, I'm hurt. I'm just... oh my god, I'm upset. That's worse than insulting my mom. When you insult my writing I just want to go hide in a cave and forget I ever started writing. I hate that. I hate this feeling. No one has ever degraded my writing like this stupid bitch did. This is when I want to grab a bottle of pills and swallow the whole damn thing. I know, selfish and whatever- I don't care! It's how I feel. I didn't even want to write on here because all I have right now is anger and hostility. I know this has to be god punishing me for the things I said the other day. Well, I'm fucking done with god. I am so.... ahhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Some guy tried to lecture me on being mad. "Is it getting you anywhere?" Yea, buddy it is. A closer seat in hell. I don't know what the hell to do. Should I close my account that I paid fourty-some dollars for?? I know, don't let that get to you. Whatever... it's gotten to me and now I'm just pissed and want to kill someone. Fucking fuckers! I went on that damn site for constructive criticsm and that wasn't constructive. That just tore my heart out. I just want to lay down and die. Why? Why the fuck would someone do that? Even if I don't like the poetry I would never give someone a two star rating out of 6. That's just mean. I'm listening to my song, "Ticks and Leeches". Fucking awesome. Anyway....... well, I've really trimmed down my friends list. People are just pissing me off left and right. I really wish I was stronger than this, but I'm not. I'm gonna go dwell in my misery now. Bye.....